tink
y r human beings so ungrateful? hmm mayb not e qn shld be y do human beings let their feelings and emotions control them...4 everythin gd or bad tat i haf done i no i will get wats comin, so is tis it? is tis my punishment? wat a way man, to punish me usin e onli hope i haf left for tis life...
i've stood by u thru everythin n u dun reali even think of tat, i'm sittin here in tears typin this becoz i noe slowly i'm losin u, u haf so many things in ur life so i try to take e bkseat, sometimes u make me feel so worthless, even though everythin i do i keep u in mind i wonder if u do tat for me...the person is jus a novelty u say, jus someone who as long as u dun see things will be fine...do u even realise how wrong tat sentence sounds? u noe how much my heart broke when u told me e truth @ e bustop e first time we toked bout it, u prolly will neva noe how i feel or mayb u tink i'm crazy tats fine
oh god e person is a fren n becoz of u i dun noe how to face the person anymore, invite the person along if u wan to, i noe u wan to...i can't help but haf evil tots no i'm not going to kill anyone but u noe wat i'm tokin bout...at tis crucial period of my life i dun reali noe how to get up from tis blow u haf jus dealt me i dun reali noe how to react anymore dun ask me y i reali dun noe...even rite now i'm sitting here wonderin if ur tinkin of me or r u too preoccupied doin somethin else noeing full well i'm breakin apart...hmm but den again i dun tink u can help me coz i dun wanna deny u ur emotions and e way u feel...u said actions speak louder than words...u said we'll see...
pls...dun let anyone take u away from me...u keep tellin me u dun wanna leave n u neva had e intention to, den i'm losin u without u even leavin me...
LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH GIVE ME TRUST AND FAITH for my partner has requested tat of me yet i somehow can't muster it up...i jus dun wanna feel this way anymore
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aLiSoN
mich lee
haha @ e request of mich lee i'm gng to do tis thingy tat she tagged me to do, hmm dun usually do such things but since she wans me too, of course i will =)
erm ok basically suppose to say 8 things bout my perfect lover
1) able to make me laugh
2) neva get bored lookin @ e person
3) cares for me
4) alwaes wans to be with me and miss me
5) able to crap as well as haf intellectual conversations with
6) is willing to do things they may not like jus coz i wan to
7) suprises me (in a gd way of course!)
8) loves me and doesn't mind spendin e rest of their lives with me
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aLiSoN
wonder
man how do some pple do it? study cca play frens relationship family how do they actually manage to do everythin so well...lets not even tok bout e pple from rjc and such lar k its quite obvious they haf to be gd in studies or else they wouldn't even get promoted, but at the same time their cca is practically overachieving and they are like damm popular among everyone n maintain their relationships reali well...yet its seriously seems to be beyond some of us, includin me of course...i'm jus tinkin real hard to figure out y...isit our mentality or somethin? isit becoz we dun haf enough will power? if we were all born with e same kinda brain n we all haf 2 arms 2 legs and all our senses den by rite we shld be able to do wat they did wat...rite?
i'm @ home on a WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON tat is like so weird lar can i felt so weird leavin sch so earli aiyo...oh n i'm damm broke but i need new clothes and $ for entertainment arghh should not haf spent so much on bdae pressies and marche n chomp chomp damm...
my class finished 1st in our race for e db heats, but heard from nana that boat 4 got prob in tat it was lighter so almost 3/4 of e races boat4 won...but...but...WE WERE IN BOAT 2!! yay i'm happy tat we won on our own ability and not becoz of some ligher boat...hope tis pushes my class to train hard, its our last yr afterall and i wanna go out with a bang, was bitterly disappointed when we didn't qualify for e 12x100m coz we were third in j1 dang if onli we didn't haf so many injured peeps tat dae...oh n badminton got in to inter-cca db! yay!! wonder if e guys will row...coz tink deres like 14 or 15 j2 gurls which means we still need bout 9 or 10 guys haha
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aLiSoN
since march
whee haven't updated since march...aniwaes was on e bus jus now n these 2 PRC students from a jc nearby my place came on on board n they were sorta discussing life in singapore, haha quite daring i must say seeing how they were prolly on a bus filled with singaporeans...i rmb one comment they made, they said that they haf spent most of their money here on transport! haha so weird coz like all this while i've been like using my parent's $ for my ez link n stuff so like dun reali feel e pinch, den they said that as compared to china, singaporeans hardly walk to anywhere, like on e streets u wun see much pple walkin unless ur outside a major shoppin center n like so qiao e moment they said tat i looked out my window and there reali wasn't a single person walkin on e street! jus alotta cars haha food for tot man...
well 2dae is e last dae of my badminton tournament, also e last official badminton gathering under tpjc badminton team...i'm rather saddened coz e gurls haf been a part of my life since last yr and i'm so used to seeing them every monday,wednesday,friday and now even saturday...kinda wat liyi said, that nxt time on mondae @ bout 430pm, we'll prolly be stonning in front of our bks tinkin tat @ ard tis time we shld be in e hall trainin, remenising basically...lets hope tat we'll be able to maintain e close bonds we haf...thanx for everythin gurls, one of e best xpriences of my life...
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aLiSoN
