ordinary
Ordinary
Train
Whose eyes am I behind?
I don't recognize anything that I see
Whose skin is this design?
I don't want this to be the way that you see me
I don't understand anything anymore
And this web that I'm tired of
Is taking me right up these walls
That I climb up to get to your story
It's anything but ordinary
And when the world is on its knees with me
It's fine
And when I come to the rescue
I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where's mine?
'Cause you're what I need so badly
But I'm anything but ordinary
Can you save me from this world of mine?
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation
You are the one, look what you've done
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke, you're just a kid
You weren't ready for what you did, no . . .
And when the world is on its knees with me
It's fine
And when I come to the rescue
I do it for you time after time
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where's mine?
'Cause you're what I need so badly
But I'm anything but ordinary
I think I'm trying to save the world for you
You've been saving me too
We could just stay in and save each other
I'm anything but ordinary
I'm anything but ordinary (Ordinary)
fallen in luv with tis song...jus keep listenin to it over n over again :>
nooooo!!
okie...tis has neva happened to me b4...i've neva liked two pple at once...but now i do...if u read my msn nick now, it has somethin bout not changing directions...den i put a fingers crossed sign there...unfortunately fingers crossed or not, i tink i reali admire tis person, n i tink i can tok to tis person better den e first one...actually i've kinda mentioned tis person b4 in my blog, but i'm pretty sure nobody reali noes...gonna call tis person t...hehe...lame i noe...but i dun care...i'm too emo now to care bout anythin...i hate tis feelin of being fickle...but i guess in all honesty, i'm kinda losin interest in u, n i tink me n t haf alot in common...i tink i can learn alot of things from t becoz of tat...t responds more to me den u do, but both of u give me e same feelings when i look into ur eyes...okie...i'm mushing myself out...pls bare with my crap kez...i'll prolly write tis crap for a few days to come...i like t becoz t is responsible, yet noes how to haf fun, t is daring n interesting, n associates well with people of all ages n sex, t makes me wanna try things...
haiz...okie i'm sleepy liao...e last thing i needed was for me to be more emotionally bogged down, but i am...
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aLiSoN
brought tis upon myself
haiz...feelin tired...not sure if i made e rite choice in joining student council coz its quite time consuming n i'm not even sure if i'm stayin in tpjc...everybody says tat 1st 3mths shld be a breeze, but i tink i'm takin things a little to0 seriously...like how i try to finish all e tutorials b4 e teacher asks us to...or how i rack my brain at every sc meeting...reali feelin e strain of it...plus tomoro gotta run 4km for pe, after sch i haf odac, badminton n math's society all running at e same time so i haf no idea which to go for...sian...den i haf a debate tomoro n an public speakin contest on fri...dunno how i got myself into such things...jus hope i dun make a fool of myself...
everytime i tink i'm ready to let u go...i see u n u give me hope, be it in e things u say or e memories tat flood to me when i see u...i tink u're one of e few reasons why i dun find excuses to skip sch...wonder how i'm gonna cope if ur gone or if i dun get to see u again...
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aLiSoN
obvious
Westlife
Obvious
Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me (Bryan echo: just like me)
But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you, I want you to know
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song
hehe...*tee hee* :P
shrek
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ogres rule!!
been doing more tinkin bout life n i realise tat i'm not gonna let all this future stuff bog me down anymore...i'm jus gonna take things day by day n enjoy my experience in tpjc...hopefully i'll be able to keep up with e stuff tat's being taught though...u noe, found out todae tat me n kit r e onli pple in class who didn't take pure chem in sec4...haiz...tat's jus e confidence booster i was lookin for...lolz...these few days i've been keepin alot of my feelings bout stuff to myself...haven't reali been speakin much bout em to my frens...which is why i'm showing less emotions each day...makes me sound like a robot huh?
i saw u todae...spoke to u...fell for u even more...i'm doomed... :p
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aLiSoN
nice n slow
i'm quite disappointed tat i didn't get to see e person todae...tot if we had fate we would meet...haiz...kez from now on i'm gonna refer to e person as u...found out from a fren tat u r quite a guai kid...dun go out alot kind...dunno y but i'm kinda attracted to tat...i tink maybe its coz i've seen too many pple who can't get their priorities rite, so its nice to meet a focused person for once...getting a bit scared tat u've started to notice my fondness of u coz i've been mentioning u casually in front of pple who noe u....den again i could jus be reading too much into e lines...reali hope tat tis won't affect our frenship coz i haf tis great admiration of u as a fren as well...
next wk tutorials will be startin...afraid i won't get to see u soo much...makes me sad...aniwae moving on...i'm gonna tok bout another person which i'll refer to as Y...when i first met Y...i had a high suspicion tat e person hated me or disliked me...but den Y showed a different side n started to be slightly nice to me, n after getting to noe e person, i find i quite like Y...onli prob is Y seems to blow hot n cold with me...dun get me wrong, i do not haf a crush of any sort on tis person, in fact, Y is actually a gurl but i would reali like to build a strong frenship with Y, so i'm reali confused as to wat i should do...dun tink i haf e confidence to approach Y time n time again...her frens aren't helping either
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aLiSoN
goose pimples
i'm reali fallin in luv with tpjc...tis is e one n onli sch tat i haf looked forward to goin too all my life...maybe its jus coz i'm onli a week in...maybe if i stay 4 e whole term i'll get damm sick of it...but i highly suspect tat its not gonna happen anytime soon :P...it seems to be e perfect sch 4 me coz e discipline is not too high n most of e teachers r quite nice...not all though (read my previous post)...n i like e independence of jc education...its makes me motivate myself coz i noe e teacher isn't gonna spoon feed me anymore...n i've alreadi got my first crush...lolz...funny thing is e person isn't e type i usually fall for...i haven't mentioned e person to any of my frens yet...so any jc1s from tp who noe me...its not e guy i told u bout...e first guy i tot was reali cute...but i hate his attitude...tis person is super nice n not bad looking...lolz...oh n super smart too...every aspect of tis person impresses me...neva had such a big crush b4...i noticed tat if i reali like a person, i won't mention it to my frens, i'll jus tink bout e person all e time...e kinds of crushes i mention to my frens r usually e small ones like good-looking guys or somethin...oh n i'll tend to doodle little luv songs on my worksheets too...moving on, i find e seniors in e sch veri nice, most of em dun put on airs or anything like tat, one thing i notice though is tat even though we're onli one year apart, they look alot more mature den we do...they make me feel like a sec1 kid while they're like sec4 seniors...lolz...
but everytime i tink bout how much i like e sch...i'll tink bout whether or not i can stay in e sch...with my O's results yet to be released i feel like my future is clouded...i'm afraid i'll fall in luv with tis sch sooo much den when i haf to leave...i can't...also i'm not sure if i can cope with takin pure chemistry n c-math coz i didn't take pure chem in sec4 n its quite a publicised fact tat i suck at math...haiz...den there's always e poly route which i'm also considering...to study either bio or mass communication...decisions, decisions...haiz...
p.s. i get goose pimples on e bus every morning e moment we turn n e sch looms into view :p
choir sux!
okie so everybody was forced to go 4 choir auditions todae...at first i didn't wan to go but den i tot since i've neva tried choir b4, i shld jus join n see...so we went...den we met one of e seniors who always helped out my og, she said its damm easy, jus hum after e tune of e keyboard...kekez so we went up n got split into batches of three...i was with tis gurl who for some reason reali wanted to join choir n she was super nervous coz she had a sore throat, after speaking to her, we both realised tat we're bad at remembering e tune we're suppose to hum, so we requested 4 e seniors to sing out e tune for us, which they did, but when we couldn't exactly do e same they started looking veri unhappy like we were wasting their time or something n e gurl next to me was damm close to crying! after putting us thru tat embarrasing ordeal, they tell us tat we're not selected! i'm not unhappy bout tat, its jus tat i felt unfair for e gurl next to me who was so obviously put off by e seniors bad attitude...
kekez on to e next reason y i tink choir sux...we met joanne during recess n during her audition, joanne being scarred from her former choir experience didn't even wan to audition, so we decided to jus go n tell em so...we walked up to tis older woman whom i guessed must be e teacher in charge or somethin n she told her tat she wasn't interested...den e teacher answered us veri rudely bout how everybody has to audition n we shld use our brains tat she would not take us in if we sang badly!! i reali believe tat sayin such things was reali unnecessary ...i tink all tis success bout achieving gold every year has gone to e choir's head...pple who reali want to join dun get e chance to n tat they tink they haf e right to tok to pple in rude manners...
i tink i'm quite into student council but i'm lookin 4 another cca to join...close to joining odac...i guess we'll jus haf to see how it goes...
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aLiSoN
y am i feeling like tis??
feeling confused n depressed...wanna cry but i noe i'll feel stupid after doing so...i feel tat i haf soooo many regrets in my young life...i noe tat sometimes certain types of pple jus can't bond with other types of pple...but was tat a gd enough reason? i noe i tried...but i guess i jus can't be someone i'm not...n though i may feel a bond with them i noe tat they'll most likely not feel e same way...i'm kinda tired of tryin so hard...guess i jus haf to accept tis way of life...i keep tinkin bout turning back time...dun tink it'll make a big difference, i'm not sure if i'm gonna keep trying...not sure if anyone cares...
start of lectures todae...pretty simple stuff...i can't keep out e fear in my heart though...i jus noe tat pretty soon i'll start to struggle coz i dun haf e intelligence...
okie...i'm reali cryin now...jus feel so down, depressed, can literally feel e pain in my heart...i feel like i'm in e mist n i can't see wat's around me...i feel sooo lost...help me Lord, pls...
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aLiSoN
dog-tired
one word...TIRED!! i haf neva gone thru such a tiring orientation in my entire life!! n its onli e 2nd day...lookin bk on it though i dunno wat's makin me feel so tired...we didn't reali do much strenous exercise...oh i noe must be all e cheers tat we haf to do all e time...was jus as tired yesterday but tat might be coz we had to do tis mass hip-hop like dance...n me hafin not done any exercise durin e hols, was grossly outta shape...lolz...
still feelin kinda unfamiliar with e sch...e seniors all seem veri nice but it still feels strange...i tink i need more confidence in myself...realise tat if i'm not comfortable with pple i won't talk or participate much...n me being e outgoin gurl tat i'm feels reali confused bout tis...i wanna say somethin n give my input, but somethings stoppin me...haiz...oh well...there's always tomoro
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aLiSoN
