patriotism in question
everytime i see pictures in e newspapers or magazines of other countries, i get tis intense feelin of wantin to live there...i doesn't matter whether it is a picture of a backward farm or a busy street in New York...i jus reali desire to jump into e picture n feel for myself how its like to live there...its not becoz i hate where i'm at now or anythin, in fact i'm reali proud to be Singaporean! maybe its coz i wanna experience livin outside my comfort zone, seein how i live with super protective parents n i'm pretty dependent on them...
on other issues...I CAN'T BELIEVE TAT SYLVESTER IS STILL IN SINGAPORE IDOL!! i am hoppin mad tat he was voted in n olinda is out!! c'mon pple...if we get both to sing on e street as buskers, i'm pretty sure tat olinda will get pots filled with money while sylvester will struggle...i now haf tis veri bad feelin tat he is goin to win singapore idol solely coz e gurls find him adorable...ok i used to like him, even voted 4 him in e wildcard show...den his performances started goin downhill n u can jus see tat he's not as good as the other idols in terms of vocal quality, he doesn't look at ease on stage either, for a "rocker" he looks awkward n uncomfortable, he doesn't project any kind of confidence which is essential to being an idol in my book...i am reali hopin tat taufik wins coz he's a million times better den sylvester...
*OUT*
aLiSoN
personality disorder test
tis is basically a test of all e bad sides of ur life...so now u noe i'm high on keepin old n useless stuff ard my house n tat i'm terribly dependent on my luved ones...lolz...
naggy feeling
gosh...can't take it anymore...can't wait 4 e O's 2 be over n done with...been dreamin all day bout e freedom tat i'll haf after tis mon...which is my last paper!! WOOOHOOOOO!!! YEAH!!!
aniwae...geog paper was sucky todae...made mistake on e calculation 4 distance btw 2 pts! can u believe it?? it was such a give away qn n i counted wrongly!! haiz...its jus 1 mark everybody says...but i tink it was such a difficult paper tat 1 mark could actually determine whether i get a B4 or not...yes its tat bad, so much so tat my dream of gettin an A1 for combine humanities has jus *POOF* disapeared! rite now i'm jus keepin my fingers crossed tat my 1st essay qn on manufacturing will save me coz my tourism essay was filled with crap...tat tourism qn required tons of examples which i was so not able to give...so kinda wrote super big...bigger than my normal sized handwriting aniwae...hopin 2 fill up 2 blanks...n on one of e qns, my description was actually longer den my justification...haiz i'm soooo screwed!
e error in e graph for e bio paper 2 came out in e papers recently...haf no idea what UCLES r gonna do bout it though...they jus said they will make sure tat no student wld be at a disadvantage when they make their decision...i'm not reali sure i wanna retake it coz all my bio info has sorta been returned to mdm rao...but yet retaking will give me a second chance, so i won't make e mistakes i made at first...haiz decisions decisions...
*OUT*
aLiSoN
all torn up
i'm confused...i dunno where i'm goin with my life...i'm out of sec sch n most pple around tis time would haf made up their minds bout a career of some sort, but i haven't, n its bugging me like shit!
everybody tinks i shld go get a job 2 earn some money n workin experience...yeah i'm all for tat...i'm willin 2 try any job jus to prove to some people tat i can do stuff on my own...m tinkin tat a job will keep me grounded, so i won't haf so much time 2 day dream, everybody says hafin dreams r a good thing...but where i'm at rite now, all my dreams seem outta reach n its downright demoralising...its hard also coz i dun reali haf alot of talents, i'm basically like a little jack of all trades, but yet a master of none...so my talents ain't gonna help me...oh well...back 2 e drawin board...
*OUT*
aLiSoN
i don't wanna be anythin other den me
forgive me...jus found another song tat reali applies 2 me...i jus feel reali emotional todae...haiz...
Gavin DeGraw
I Don't Wanna Be
I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from
[chorus] I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned
[chorus]
Can I have everyone's attention please
See, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody
[chorus]
feelings n emotions
Breakaway
by Kelly Clarkson
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away
[chorus] I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away
[chorus]
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Breakaway
Breakaway
practically in luv with tat song rite now...it sums up everything i feel in my life at tis point...
