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i cut myself

all my practical exams r over but i'm not reali sure how i'll do...cut myself durin bio practical todae...was cuttin up a specimen den i stupidly ran my finger over e blade...at first i tot it jus peeled a little skin off, but when i touched it...oh man...blood gushing out like nobody's business...ran it under water, sucked a bit (yeah disgusting i noe...but i didn't noe wat else to do!)...den i remebered tat mdm rao was ard so i asked for a plaster! yeah yeah i noe i shld haf tot of tat so i didn't haf to suck my own bld...

e end of e practicals marks e beginning of the main papers...which sux!! i dun haf to go to sch tomoro which makes me happy, but its also sorta like e deep breathe b4 e plunge coz for almost everyday next wk i haf 2 papers...no idea how i'm gonna cope, esp with math n humanities...used to b pretty gd at humanities in lower sec, but kinda jus lost tat ability in upper sec (if u ask hui xian, she'll prolly give u a reali irritating reason y), was neva eva in my whole life gd in math b4 n tat quality or rather e lack of it runs in e family... used to say it was in my genes but ms peh always says tats nonsenses :P...its jus tis nervousness or rather sianness if theres such a word, bout e week ahead...reali wish tat e wk would neva come...

enjoyin life now as a normal student...no restrictions, no rules...but e peeps ard me still see me as a prefect i tink...or mayb its jus coz they enjoy teasing me...everytime my shirt's not tucked in or if i'm wearin ankle socks, they'll jus go "orhhhh prefect ah...still untuck shirt some more"...it was cute at first, now its gettin old n down right infuriating....haiz...

*OUT*
aLiSoN

posted by alison @ 2:03 AM